I am Falsely Ambitious

I love to pretend to be ambitious and I am really good at two things- small projects and not following through!

I am great at small to mid sized projects ie the crafts and DIY I have on here because I love them! They are fun, easy and totally beneficial to me and my family. I enjoy crafts regardless of if they are for me or my neighnor or merely to post on here because they are fun and I enjoy writing for my readers! I love being frugal and more often than not projects can be done in a frugal manner and they can make something fun/funky and even spectacular for uber cheap! I love that I have the ability to stretch a dollar, use a sewing machine and help others do it…but it have to take less than a week to do so, I need to be totally invested in what I am doing and passionate about it…or I just quit, it goes by the way side!

Kind of like…
How I was all excited about how I was going to become a writer woot woot, I was going to make a billion dollars and buy a house writing! I was also going to be a star at Mary Kay, own a wellness center the likes of Massage Envy but holistic, be a journalist, a nanny, a daycare provider, a waitress, a childrens clothing designer…I have a problem with my follow through…a serious problem…you see I am good at starting I just don’t finish…especially if there is no end in sight…

My morning goes like this

*Peel myself out of bed
*Check bed for child pee
*Go Potty
*Go Downstairs
*Check E-mail
*Pour Coffee
*Make Breakfast

Not bad doesn’t usually phase me except there was this email saying I had a writing assignment due by 1 my time and I was like WTF I quit that shit…but I am not one to leave anyone hanging…so I write, haphazardly and half dead (asleep but really its a zombie like state and not attractive) only to submit the piece 43 words short and I sorta want to be a writer again…but I quit so I could devote time and energy to my household and my blog. I love my blog with pink sparkly hearts and I want to write to you all every moment of every day…okay well not really, sorry, I would probably get arrested if I told y’all some of the fucked up shit in my brain (like the zombie apocalypse) but I would ideally eventually like to make money writing my blog cus its awesome and I love it and no one ever criticizes to my face my shitty spelling and horrid punctuation although I know you all are doing it at home…dont judge me!

Well that was the start of my off day! I am going to take the kids to the library when Emer wakes up and thats that!